WHY I AM NOT A MYSTIC
Essay
April 27, 1978
Mysticism is the doctrine that there are
things which cannot be explained or understood
but nevertheless can be experienced and known.
One of these things, of course, is "God". Thus
the mystics tell us that "God" cannot be explained
or understood but can be experienced and known.
What is it, that can be thus experienced
and known,
but not understood or explained?
It is bootless to say, "Well, it is God", because
that tells us nothing. That would be like
saying, "Blfgh can be experienced and known, but
not explained or understood." I do not care how
real your experiences of Blfgh may seem to you;
if you cannot tell me in some general or partially
descriptive way what it is supposed to be, the
statement is meaningless.
Consider instead a tree. I might indeed say, "Trees
can be experienced and known, but not understood
or explained." And if you were to ask me, "But
what is a tree?" I could answer merely by
pointing to a tree, or a grove of trees, without
needing any words. But unfortunately it appears
that we cannot so easily "point" to God, except
in more indirect and obscure ways.
We can and do "point" to God as the Creator
of all things. This assumes that the earth and
everything on it, as well as everything else in
the universe, was "made", in the same way that
I might make a mudball or a stuffed doll or a
carved ornament, by some conscious entity
exercising directive power over the form which
things take. But the impossibility of certain
physical events, such as square planetary orbits
or trees growing wheels and windows, and the
randomity of both destructive and creative occurrences
and processes, make the proposition that there
is any directive force at best a dubious one. And
in any case it is an anthropomorphic projection, to
assume that there was or is a humanoid or humanesque
entity, thinking, willing, manipulating, which "created"
or formed all things. The universe could just as easily
have come about by chance, or physical laws, as by a
Creator.
We also point to "God" as a binding spirit
or force in the universe, which we sometimes
call "oneness". That is, we feel that all things
are one, united, emanating from the same cosmic
origin; and we use the word "God" to refer to this
pervasive unifying principle. Now such a property
may very well actually exist, in fact, it is
difficult to imagine the opposite; but in that case
what does it mean? Are we one with volcanoes and
stellar collisions? Are we one with accidents and
suffering? For me to say that I "feel" one with
all things may be a valid description of how
I feel, but what can it prove
about the nature of reality? For
another to say that he is a separate entity, and that
the rest of the universe is likewise fragmented and
unrelated and against him, may equally well be a valid
description of how he feels, but what does that
prove either? In other words, our feelings
about ourselves in relation to the universe are
only the feelings that we particularly happen
to have, and do not, can not prove anything
about the nature of the universe.
Another picture of "God" is of a cosmic consciousness
in which "all things live and move and have
their "being". Now I admit that that is a comforting
thought, that is, it gives us feelings of comfort and
reassurance, that the universe is not random, that
the genesis of creatures and planets is not fortuitous
and chaotic, that the purpose of and reason for kindness
and justice are not accidental or man-made, but rather
that everything has its orderly place in some
incomprehensible (to us) mind or Mind of the
universe. However, this notion is also at best an
anthropomorphic projection of our own properties
onto the universe, and there is no evidence
for such a "consciousness" nor even that "consciousness"
is the highest form of evolutionary artifact. In
the absence of any evidence whatever, the "feeling"
no matter by how many persons it is shared, of such
a "consciousness" again is no proof of anything but
those feelings.
To illustrate further, if I have a feeling of hunger
that does not prove the existence of a Universal Spirit
of Hunger. If I experience satisfaction and contentment
that does not prove either the existence of a Universal
Spirit of Contentment. If I have a sensation of fear
or a sensation of love, neither of them prove the
existence of Universal Cosmic Beings who create those
feelings. The only thing which any of these feelings
prove is that as organisms we are capable of generating
or experiencing those feelings.
God is also identified with the force or power of love
or Love if you want to personify it. Now it is clear
that those who experience love, and especially those
who can feel it in the face of persecution and disaster
are probably happier than those who feel hate and fear
but what does this prove? Does the fact that happiness
seems to follow from feelings of love prove that there
is an external (to us) Being or Spirit of Love permeating
the universe? Does the power of love in overcoming hate
and fear (sometimes) in others prove anything either
about any such entity? And even if there were such
an entity, would it make any sense for love to be
commanded as an order, for us to be coerced into acts
of charity by fear of suffering or retribution from
such a Power? Love is like sunlight; it illumines
and warms and invigorates, but it is nonsense to
say that it is omnipotent or omnipresent or omniscient.
To conclude, I am not a mystic because I do not
know what it is that can be experienced and
known, but not understood or explained. I can
grant that it is conceivable that the Universe is
inhabited by a form of consciousness which determines
how everything happens, including our own existence; but
I can only accept that as a hypothesis, and one
without a scrap of objective evidence to support it, pure
speculation; and no claims of "mystical" knowledge,
not reproducible by me, can be accepted as evidence
of anything other than the belief or opinion of the
claimant. It is not possible that something which
is real cannot be explained or understood, or at
least perceived unambiguously by all observers; to
pretend to know it unexplainably and unexplainedly
is just mythology.
(originally published under the name of John Fitz)